i just realised that i dislike changes as much as some people. everyone is rather enthusiastic about the new company. i, on the other hand, have bad feelings. maybe it's because i have disliked uncle ng since the first time i met him. maybe i'm sensitive but i just don't trust an envious person. an envious person is proud, they dislike anyone who is better than them. i find him that sort of person. but then again, who am i to judge? i don't know him nor do i know the business world. dog-eats-dog world? everyone for themselves? survival of the fittest? a world where the law of the jungle is prevalent? or the law of the jungle just applies to every creature, even to man who always distinguish himself(itself?) from the animals.

i think too much. i have too much free time, too much solitude. i wonder if they are doing me more good or harm? good because they make think and open up my mind; harm because they sometimes rob my peace of mind, the thinking went too far, it went astray. too many 'maybe's and 'perhaps's. i'm in a state of uncertainty. torn between intuition and judgement.

i guess it's not something for me to worry. i should be worrying something that is more relevant to me:

EXAM!!!!!!!

man, this is really a curse! =P