it's been a long time since i last blogged..i mean i have nothing much to talk about and i had been home for far too long. the break (a very long one) is a fruitful one...i got to catch up lili again and it is a nice feeling to know that someone still cares... i am now in mmu. just came back from my first lecture..nothing special there but i quite like the lecturer though..the class was damn quiet..maybe because it is just the first lecture..hopefully the atmosphere will improve...i don't know how i will turn out here. i planned to start a new life here, namely t cutting down my ba habits. i wonder if i will succeed. procrastinating has always been my nature. so is complaining and criticising. all these are not good. people get hurt (emotionally) in the process. i hope i can turn into a better person. i miss my friends...5Sc1 and SAM people. i really really miss them. everyone is everywhere, busy with their own lives. why must those dear to me go overseas? it was already bad enough for me when i know that lili would be going to US, now even en yao's going to singapore. why is everyone leaving me? i feel like i am losing people that i care for and people who care for me. ok, i don't know how much en yao cares for me, maybe none at all but still....... i thought i would have gotten over him but no..i haven't and wouldn't be able to for the time being....he's still the one. all right, i have to put all these emotional stuff aside..

NO.1 : STUDIES

i pray i will not disappoint my family. my SAM result was disappointing enough. i want to do my best for them...family, friends, and the ones who care.