I have removed the 'permission' to view this blog because it's troublesome. Even I had been lazy to visit my own blog after that =p So, it's back to normal now. As for some assholes out there, I'll deal with them somehow.

For the update now...well, this will be a rather random post.

Random thought 1
There was a song that I searched frantically when I was in beta but could never find. Well, guess what? It was uploaded on the intranet and I can download it anytime I want, even now. But I didn't. Somehow I don't really want it. I thought wanted it but I don't. Looks like I don't really know what I want.

Random thought 2
There was a brief period when I doubt about the feelings I think have for you. The night when you were blindfolded and we guided you to the tower..I was holding your hand throughout the journey. Even before that, when I tried blindfolding you and you didn't stop struggling, we were touching all the time. Your arms, your shoulders, your back and your face. I don't know how you felt about the touches but I didn't feel anything at all. I thought I would feel excited with butterflies in my stomach but no, there was none. It was as if it's the most normal thing. That was when I begin to doubt.

The next day, as usual, you sat next to me in the class. As usual, we talked about the lecture, the lecturer and everything else. And as usual, we went for the same tutorial class despite being in different groups. The tutorial room was unusually crowded and I had half a mind to leave and attend another group. But you insisted that there were still seats and yes, there they were. At the farthest corner of the room were exactly two empty seats. So there we were, 'having tutorial' when we could barely see the tutor and the board. And we fidgeted so much struggling to copy the solutions. But those are the times when I have butterflies in my stomach. Every time our arms brushed, every time we leaned closer to talk and just the feeling of having you next to me makes me feel comfortable.

I have no doubt about my feelings now. It's just that engineering students tend to get excited over 'boring, normal stuff' but are totally inert towards 'exciting stuff'. And yeah, we're pretty much comfortable with the butterflies in our stomachs too =p

Random thought 3
MMU Alpha people are an imaginative bunch. It's a wonder to me how something so small can be twisted and be blown into such a large proportion. Well, since I am not from MMU Alpha, I guess I'll never reach that level.

Or is it the scenario above where we get excited over opposite things? Which is why something insignificant to me can make them excited? But you guys are engineering students too. So, why are we so different?

Maybe different major.