sometimes i feel that i'm leading a fake and hypocritical life. there she is, my roomie by the name. in fact we're nothing like roomates at all. i realised that soon enough after she shifted in. i made a mistake offering her to stay with me cos her previous roommate is a real bitch (or so she says ). anyway, i would have been better off staying alone or strangers. i don't mind that. sometimes i think sympathies really brings trouble, especially if the person that you sympathised and tried helping is not a really grateful person. some people just have this notion that they are entitled to get help from the world. the world owes it to them. how wrong can they go, i wonder... i know that i'm not a perfect roomie either. i miss suzanne. she's the best roomie i've had here. perhaps because i'm highly independent...that is why it doesn't really matter to me if i have a not-so-good roomie. i have my own friends and my survival does not depend on her so i can just ignore her when i'm in the room. plug-in my earphone, put it to my ear and there i am, in my own little virtual world with my friends who are in the same world. and she'll be totally out of my world. i can really get disconnected from the real world, which can be a bit dangerous at times. i mean, the fire alarm could have just rang and i wouldn't know that it did cos i can't hear a thing! i can hear my phone though ...i mean, how could i not?? the EM wave from the phone always interferes with the wave from my speaker...causing this annoying, rythmic, ear-piercing sound. whatever it is, i'll just stay as i am and i hope she stays as she is. she had better not cross the line or i'll make her life hell....