this blog thing is still bothering me...though he said he was just playing, i don't think he is...if he's just playing he wouldn't be like this...he seems to care about my blog...as if it meant a lot for him to have it...why?? i am not ready to show him my blog...someday, i hope someday i'll find the courage to let him see my blog...i was at the wrong too actually...i blew up on him yesterday...i never did that before..i don't know what got me...i don't want to fight with him...it hurts me to fight with him...it's very uncomfortable, uneasy...as if there is a barrier between us...please, don't let this fight ruin what we already have..please don't...i am still very sad about this...i almost confessed to him that i like him cos i just don't know what to do...but i didn't...don't know if it's a good thing...i don't know anything...don't even know if he likes me..everything's so uncertain...

dysentery.gary:
"beep!"

dysentery.gary:
"sorry for being annoying lah"

nyx:
"hehe...i'm ok :D"

dysentery.gary:
"yea rite.."

dysentery.gary:
"yesterday u blew up"

nyx:
"that was yesterday...i am ok today"

nyx:
"really.."

nyx:
"sorry lah for blwing up"

dysentery.gary:
"hehe i understand"

dysentery.gary:
"small girls like u blow up easily :P"

well, lil' boy like you are annoying! =P

nyx:
"go try bribing my friends lah...amybe you can't get the link :P"

dysentery.gary:
"i dowan to see ur blog lah! *-)"

nyx:
"i have my own reasons lah"

dysentery.gary:
"yea own reasons.... whatever"

nyx:
"i'm not ready to show you my blog yet....someday lah..."

dysentery.gary:
"oh but other frens u're ready to show them lah?"

nyx:
"you don't understand...."

dysentery.gary:
"i understand lar... only close frens get to see ur blog rite?"

nyx:
"no..it's not that....you are close to me"

dysentery.gary:
"uhuh okay.."

dysentery.gary:
"how was ur day?"

he just has to make me say stuff like that...what the hell do you want me to do?? you want me to confess??? i am a girl for god's sake!! and i am not ready to let you know...this is so frustrating...

"hey relax lar.. i just playin around wit u.. i understand if dowan other ppl to read ur stuff.. chill out k =) "

you just don't understand..otherwise you wouldn't be tormenting me... i like you, that's why i'm not showing you my blog, not because you're not my close friend....you just can't get it, can you??? sometimes i wish you're just my close friend, then i wouldn't have fought with you...this is so sad...