i have no guts to reply to that bulletin....why is my heart still pounding?? he got a bit emotional just now and i felt...scared, clueless...i had no idea what to do or what to say...i am at the mercy of his words...

dysentery.gary || PEM1016 - Engineering what?:
"u know i feel quite bad askin help from u so many times"
dysentery.gary || PEM1016 - Engineering what?:
"i mean u help me so much, i dunno how to repay u..."

what the hell...i feel uneasy when things get emotional...why am i so afraid of feelings? isn't it only normal to be able to feel? yet i am so afraid of it...WHY????

nyx:
":)....just help me when i need you ok?? i may need it anytime"

i hope you'll keep promise to me....i have nothing more to ask for